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"You back MOM, You back"?

 ....Several years ago I had two adorable little boys I took care of during the day while their Moms worked.
I know,I know , you are probably wondering why?Why give up my freedom,quietness and clean house to take care of some else's children when mine were grown, When I could finally follow my dreams.....
   Well as my children finished their home school years and moved on....they all would get up mornings and go to work...my house would empty...really empty...no giggles,no reading out loud..doing school..watching as a new concept was learned...no little voices yelling Mom watch me.... Sure my children still laughed...but it was much deeper  and their toys bigger...parked in the driveway instead of my living room floor ...and mornings it was  a good-by and I love you as they headed of to jobs...big grown men jobs....and my house would settle into quietness.........
    But what I missed was childish laughter,childish dreams,,,wearing of flowers in my hair ...where else can you put you children's flowers?
   So I decided I would just collect someone else's for a while...teach them,love them and send them home to their family at night while I got a good nights sleep...always something to be thankful for....But I will quickly point out they also taught me....Thomas one of the little boys....beautiful blond hair and blue eyes....He was 2 and would cross his little arms and ask "You back ,Mom"?.....Well at first I was taken back by this question...I hadn't known I had gone anywhere...but you know being over 40 who knows where I was.?...I just didn't...This happened several times before I realized it was Thomas's way of letting me know "HE" was back....You see he would get busy, running leaving my side and dreaming in his own little boy world...Suddenly he would miss me and come running back..."You back Mom , you back?"...I would laugh and say I never left silly boy...you did...
    Then one day I was thinking about this and how often I am like this....I get busy,....running about doing good things....taking care of my family and home...and I sudden have a longing in my heart...a restlessness...emptiness....and realizing I have neglected my quiet time with Jesus...seeking His face, talking to Him..So I run back and say "You back Jesus,you back"?...and He quietly says "Yes, child I'm always here...I never left....you did....
    "Thank you Jesus,,,that you are always there waiting patiently for me to come running back...and loving me and taking me ...just as I am..."
 

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